Monday 9 April 2007

At last....

......three days in a row I have woken up pain free.  Im almost frightened to mention it in case Im tempting providence, especially after the past week.

I went back to see Mr D last Monday because the pain in my chest wall was becoming unbearable, and pretty scary.  He didnt seem too concerned, but at least reassured me it wasnt anything too sinister.  The rest of the week the pain moved along my scar, Im convinced it was the deep sutures finally disolving.  And now its gone.  Just slight discomfort now.  Which I can ignore quite happily.  Thats the first time in 8 weeks Ive been totally pain free.

Wednesday I went back to see Dr B - life seems to revolve around hospitals and doctors right now.  He examined me and declared me ascites free.  Then said to both Martin and I 'Looks like you may have found a cure'!! So he didnt expect this fat free diet to work really.  Well it seems to have and Im SO relieved.  Im still being really careful what I eat but having the odd low fat thing now.  Hes brought my CT scan foward so he can have a look at the lymph nodes that are left, so it should be in the next couple of weeks.

Yesterday (Easter Sunday) we had a really lovely day. Carol, Trev, David, Sarah and Grace came to lunch, the weather was lovely and I felt almost normal.  No, better than that actually I DID feel normal and we had a lovely relaxing day and a good laugh and even the fact I couldnt eat the meal I cooked didnt put a damper on it.

So, tentatively, and holding my breath, Im walking forwards and NOT looking over my shoulder.  And Im ready for the next thing.

 

Monday 2 April 2007

If its not one thing.........

.........its another.

Well, Ive been sticking to the cardboard and grass diet rigidly for over a week now and my weight has fluctuated a bit but in general its gone down.  So thats a good sign.  Tummy is soft and not as big either.  Another good sign.  But.....

Theres always a but isnt there?  Ive developed this pain, well searing pain is more the word for it.  Directly over where I had the chest drain and the pain is the same.  I have a horrid feeling Ive either torn something or have a hernia.  Its really bad at night when Im lying down and if I turn over or get up.  Ive had it for a few days now and it isnt getting better so Im going to get an appt with Mr D this week and see what it is.

On a lighter note the family are all well.  Catherine has started her job at the pub with James and seems to be enjoying it, well enjoying the money she gets at least!  She prefers waitressing to pot washing (wouldnt we all?) and is hoping she will get more of that soon.  Edward has started at Kings Norton Golf Club and loves it there...so does Martin !!  Now the weather is nicer and we have lighter evenings I dont think Ill be seeing much of either of them!