Caroline and I clashing horribly at the launch of 'Jane's Journey' !!
Its been 4 weeks now since the launch of the film and kidney cancer awareness campaign - and a pretty amazing 4 weeks it has been. I'm almost getting used to seeing articles and pictures of myself in the press or even on the telly now - but it still comes as a shock when a total stranger comes up to me and says "I saw you on the telly/in the paper/read your blog/watched the film - how ARE you?"
This happens a lot now, especially when I'm out locally. Its nice. For one thing it shows just how effective the campaign has been so far, and continues to be. How many people it has reached. In fact it has been calculated that it reached 45 million people world wide !!!
45 MILLION !!!!
It seems such an incredible number but when you think about the film itself being on YouTube and linked to so many Internet sites - kidney cancer, cancer awareness, medical and health web sites, Facebook groups, blogs, news etc... all the radio interviews, national and local, rolling news on Sky and ERBU news, its not that surprising the message has reached so many people. And its an ongoing process - there are still a couple of major pieces to be published, one in a well known women's magazine.
But as I said, its locally I really notice it. If I'm out shopping or at the hospital or in the bank there always seems to be one or two people who come up and start chatting to me and of course they always ask how I am....and say how well I'm looking.
I am looking well, especially with a bit of blusher and lippy on. And generally I do feel well. But as I sit here in this no man's land of waiting for my radio therapy and Zometa infusions to start, and to find out if I have funding for Afinitor, there is a small bubble of panic rising up from below the surface. I'm in the last few days of my Sutent cycle and yet the tumour under my right breast has grown very noticeably in the past week or so. And is now once again very painful. So it looks as if Sutent has stopped working on this one at least and I have no idea whats happening inside me. Hence the panic. Dr P. has arranged for me to have some radio therapy on it as well which should help with the pain at least but its only a stop gap - I need a treatment to stop the bloody thing growing. Its almost as big as what's left of my right breast now !
All I can do right now is keep as well as I can, stay positive and have faith in Team Jane who are working so hard on my behalf. And thank everyone for all their good wishes, emails, messages of support and comments on here.
And yes, if you see me in the butchers please come up and say hello, right now especially it means an awful lot.