I see it in peoples eyes. Especially if they havn't seen me for a while. It's obvious what they are thinking.....
"Isn't she dead yet? She was supposed to die ages ago"
It's almost as if they are disappointed in some way - it's only momentary and then I get "You are looking SO well"
And I am. And I feel well. And long may it continue thanks to Sutent.
None of us know when the bell will finally toll for us, not even me. So it's important that whilst we are alive we LIVE. Be positive and live your life to the fullest. Do things that make your blood zing and your heart race and take your breath away.
A very wise man in Rio said the best epitaph for my grave would be....
'When she died she was ALIVE'