Today is the day I find out if IL2 has worked...or is working.
I cant believe how nervous and stressed I have felt over the past week. Usually Im pretty relaxed and take things in my stride but this time the implications of these results have really preyed on my mind.
If it has worked, or is working, I will definitely be back in Christies on Monday for another cycle. Which is good. Really it is. Or at least Ive been trying to convince myself it is. Trying to step back and see the bigger picture. But all I see is another week of lying in bed, feeling absolutely dreadful and going loopy. Or worse. Hopefully if the results are favourable that will give me a boost and the determination to stay positive.
My appointment isnt until 4.30pm - so I have all day to worry a bit more.
Still, there is a very nice looking pub just outside Christies and Martin has promised me that, whatever the results are, we can hit it as soon as we leave for a few glasses of something. For me anyway, he is driving !