Thursday, 17 January 2008

D Day.....

Today is the day I find out if IL2 has worked...or is working.

I cant believe how nervous and stressed I have felt over the past week.  Usually Im pretty relaxed and take things in my stride but this time the implications of these results have really preyed on my mind.

If it has worked, or is working, I will definitely be back in Christies on Monday for another cycle.  Which is good.  Really it is.  Or at least Ive been trying to convince myself it is.  Trying to step back and see the bigger picture.  But all I see is another week of lying in bed, feeling absolutely dreadful and going loopy.  Or worse.  Hopefully if the results are favourable that will give me a boost and the determination to stay positive.

My appointment isnt until 4.30pm - so I have all day to worry a bit more.

Still, there is a very nice looking pub just outside Christies and Martin has promised me that, whatever the results are, we can hit it as soon as we leave for a few glasses of something.  For me anyway, he is driving !

 

15 comments:

geminisolox said...

Good luck!  Will be thinking of you!  Love Gem xx

infectiia said...

Good luck jane, I hope its a good result for you xxx

rumer136 said...

Best of luck, hope it's a positive result for you
Julie xx

rcfairy said...

I always read your blog but rarely comment as I feel stymied as to what to write in comment. Your brave struggle however is frequently in my mind and my good wishes are always with you.

jnttmorris said...

Can't wait for your next update--- best of luck for your results and oh how I admire your spirit!! Jeanette

ntown1976 said...

Stay strong, Jane.  I trust you know all the froth and bubble on the boards counts for not a bean where any of this is concerned -- support for you over this is rock-solid and unconditional.  We WANT that result from your scan to be right.  And in a sense we don't -- but in the most important sense, we DO want to hear that you'll be going into the ring for another round of boxing with this gruelling treatment.  

Continuing to think of you, Jane.

jeadie05 said...

So your journey continues ...I do hope the next step is a positive one ,you are so brave and yes bound to feel nervous who wouldnt be ? The very best of good luck today, at 4 .30 I will keep you in my thoughts sending prayers ,good vibes your way ....love Jan xx

cayasm said...

Good luck for today, sending lots of good thoughts your way.

Yasmin

devilzangel83666 said...

Got absolutely everything crossed for you, I really hope I log on some time tonight and read good news x

voluptuousvan1ty said...

It's 4.46pm as I write this from work......I'm wonderng if you're there waiting or if you've heard.

Praying so hard that it's good news, Jane. xxx

dreamyriver said...

It must be about 8.30pm over in the UK - so I can only hope that you're on track to head back into hospital next week. Have to say its the first time I've wished that on someone!
Hope the results were favourable

tellsg said...

I am hoping very hard that everything has gone ok.  Hugs, Tells x

faircolleen said...

I was thinking of you and wishing you the best news ever in your journey.Cancer bloomin stinks doesnt it. So many people are praying for you.

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