.........is how Dr P described me as I bounced into his room yesterday morning. And its true. I do look a picture of health. I have a lovely tan and havnt lost any weight yet, my eyes are sparkling and I feel well.
So it came as a bit of a surprise to both of us when he announced after examining me that the tumours under my arm had definitely grown. I explained what had happened, the fact that while taking Sutent they all shrunk, but the moment I stopped they seemed to start growing again, and became painful.
So it seems that whilst Sutent is in fact working (hurrah!) the aggressive nature of my cancer now means that during the 2 week break the tumours start growing again. The tiny thread veins next to my nose have reappeared again too, although the lump there is still minute.
There are two options to try and prevent this happening - one is to have radiation on my axilla (a nasty and not very sucessful treatment) the other is to take Sutent continuously, without a 2 week break between cycles. That doesnt sound like a bunch of fun either !
Anyway, the upshot is, I started Sutent again yesterday and will have a scan in 3 weeks. Hopefully at that stage it will show stability in my disease as Dr P has to apply for further funding for me. The original approval was for 2 cycles, then the effectivness has to be assessed before further cycles can be approved. Then he will also decide if Im to take it continuously, or have radiation. That should put an end to my looking so healthy!......ha ha !
To counteract that Ive decided its imperative I retain my lovely tan and have booked a holiday for myself and my friend Carol to go to Cyprus next month - well thats my excuse and Im sticking to it !
Its her 50th birthday in November and I cant possibly think that far ahead so we have decided to celebrate it early - lying in the sunshine and being waited on hand and foot ! On a more serious note though, it will be lovely for us to spend some time together whilst Im still well, we have been friends for so long now and we deserve this time. This is one of the positive aspects of knowing you arnt going to be around for very much longer - you can make really good use of the time - be with the people you love - make happy memories for everyone.
And yes - spoil yourself a little - why not?.......