I'm still here. Somewhere here. In the middle of writing a couple of entries which I was waiting for some info to complete.
In the meantime Sutent has done its worst again and every joint in my body is on fire again. I cant walk. Hands and feet and legs are swollen. Started radio therapy which will carry on next week. The pain was unbearable last night.
Martin rang MacMillan this morning - stop Sutent and take as much Oromorph as I need. Which is a lot at the moment. Pain is easier but I feel totally spaced out now. Lips are numb.
Anything else I write will be garbled nonsense so I wont.
Im still here but I feel as if Im holding on by my fingertips right now.