I'm really worried about Martin. Terribly worried in fact. He is under such strain at the moment - and for once I'm not talking about me. Its his job. A short while ago there was a big change in the department in which he works - and in fact runs. His workload increased dramatically - unfortunately his workforce didn't. And the burden has fallen on him. He hasn't even been given basic staffing levels and has been told there will be NO new staff employed in the near future.
So - he has this terribly stressful job without the staff to do it with and he is trying to cope with the children and the house and everything that's happening to me. Poor bloke. I'm worried for HIS health now. He needs to take care of himself. Ive told him to go and see our GP and have some time off work - but hes a man....and men don't 'do' GP's apparently.
I love this man so much and its tearing me apart seeing him like this - I cant help feeling guilty too - as if some of it is my fault.
When my legs stopped working and I was admitted here 2 weeks ago it was blatantly obvious Martin wasn't prepared for my dying. Not at all. He has since admitted as much himself. So he needs time to do this. And talk to someone. A close friend maybe.
Martin went to see our GP this evening and has been immediately signed off work. Dr A. said he was amazed Martin had coped for so long.
I'm SO relieved.