Monday, 3 May 2010

There are no words....

I really don't know what to say...
Janes's condition has deteriorated suddenly in last 24 hours. She can no longer move her legs without severe pain. We had all and sundry here this morning, McMillian, district nurse, carers and two ambulances.
She was in so much pain that the decision was made to go straight to the Hospice. A simple line like that cannot decsribe what we all went through for 4 hours this morning..
She has a compression on the spine which is either the tumor pressing against her spinal column or a tumor eating away at it. Either way, the Dr said 'its serious' and gave her four options, two of which involved hospital and two paluative care only. Jane in a clear and concise voice stated, 'I'm not going back to hospital, please just make me comfortable, I just want the pain to go away !'
She is so brave, I love her so much.
She requested that they manage her pain and then she wants to come home...
I hope there's time for her to get wish.

Martin

19 comments:

Jan said...

Oh God Bless her ,she will be in my thoughts and prayers ,as will you all ,Bless you for being her rock ...love Jan xx

Jane said...

She's so brave, and so blessed to have you to support her so wonderfully. I hold her in my thoughts and in my prayers and hope that she finds a release from the awful pain and manages to come home to the one she loves.

Andy said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Jackie said...

Sorry to hear this Martin my deepest thoughts are with you all and I really hope they can help Jane and relieve her pain, she's been through enough already, more than many of us could endure.
Love to all, Jackie xx

Sybil said...

Dearest Martin, You are all in my prayers. Unfortunately I am away on holiday on wed leaving at 4am ! so I won;t be around for a couple of weeks. However Although I will be on the Caribbean (on my first ever cruise)I am taking my little netbook with me so will be able to keep in touch.
God Bless you all
Love Sybil xxx

ADB said...

Martin,
Thanks for this update, even though it is not good news you're having to relay. I hope it will be possible for Jane's pain to be made manageable for her to return home soon.

pam said...

Hi Martin. Very sad to see this post. Wish I was close to give you all a big cuddle. I so hope, in my heart, that Jane gets some reprieve from this pain. I will be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. Jane..I Love you So much my brave,brave friend. Keeping you all closer than ever. Martin, I am here if you should need me.Pam. xxx

mortonlake said...

there are no words martin.except i am in tears.you are all in my thoughts.take care,mort

Sugar said...

sadly i saw the update in my reader, then noticed it on call 4 support also, came to let you know my thoughts & prayers are with you all at this time. much love going to our jane. she's been such an inspiration to so many, such a brave woman, i've so enjoyed reading her blog, appreciate you updating us when she couldn't. you've been a great support to her. will be lighting a candle every night for her, as i pray for all. may God bless.

Manuel Lopez said...

Sorry to hear Jane is hurting.I hope and pray she gets through it quickly and painlessly. We love you Jane. Martin, thanks for sharing.

Deb said...

This time I just can't seem to find the right words to say Martin except that we are all here praying for Jane's recovery. She has been such a tower of strength to so many along her cancer journey. Stay strong Martin and I trust that Jane's pain will be controllable and she will continue to stay strong. May God Bless Jane and all of the family.
Debbie

onesillymama said...

Sending positive vibes of comfort to you both, Jane and Martin.

Joanne said...

Thoughts & prayers are with you Martin & Jane & the rest of your family.
Joanne

Zoe said...

I have been reading alot of this blog recently,I still cannot believe what is happening,thank you Martin for updating us all,we do appreciate it,I am so very shocked,please tell Jane she is and always will be a wonderful person,she is loved xx

Jeannette said...

I do hope Jane is in less pain by now,my heart bleeds for her and for you. You are a tower of strength to her when I know how much you must be needing help yourself. Thank you for letting us know and remember you have the prayers of all of us with you both.

Michelle said...

God Bless Jane and Martin and all of the family.

I pray that the pain eases and that she gets to come home to you all soon.

Praying for you all.

Michelle

egtara said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

LYN said...

PLEASE GIVE JANE MY LOVE MARTIN..YOU GUYS ARE OF COURSE IN MY PRAYERS..MAYBE IT'S TIME FOR JANE TO LET GO AND BE PAIN FREE FOREVER..

ALL MY LOVE...

Lori J said...

Dear Martin,
Thank-you for sharing this with us. In times like this I ask the Holy Spirit to intercede on my behalf in praying for Jane, yourself and family....as I truly do not have the adequate words to say.

Blessings and hugs,

ALBERTA Lori